Thanks.

 20/2/2015

after all, its just a fairytale. Everything look so dim even my light cant see through  where should i go. you are not certain , hesitating to move forward and leave me miserable. i control eveything to make sure nothing's go wrong. I pray a lot and do everything so that we can move on but if you still on your current state that will be nothing for me. All my efforts is in vain.

for how many times i told you im not ready but then you persuade, convince me that  everything will be alright.im not blaming you but if the answer is not certain why do you have to persuade like nothings go wrong. now, you left me untold..

do you know how much i try to convince myself that this is the last?. Do you know how hurt i am before this?. Do you know what ive been going through because of XY ?. Do you know how much effort that ive to put to forget all things that traumatized me? i made it in 8 months. Do you know how much my hope for you? hoping for you are not doing the same things. Thanks again .

how im going to put my belief after all of this. How im going to put my trust if you kept unrespond.
obviously, you are thinking of leaving instead of solving the problems and now you keep silence. Made me wondering all the things, and now you said it.

thanks,

sincerely,
me.

Plan on Paed.

Dah lama aku x menulis. Well, sebenanrnya menulis ni bagus sebab mampu meningkatkan sistem cognitive otak.eh ye ke..haha..Jadi , kalau ambil positif insha Allah dapatlah kepositifan dalam blogging ni.

lama dah tak bercerita. Sekarang dah masuk round paediatrics. busy? hmm, tak adalah sangat cuma penat  sebab banyak tapi aku jenis malas hafal.. so bila tengok banyak tu dia automatically akan cakap kenapa banyak, kemudian duk hafal kenapa banyak kenapa kenapa banyak..haha..

okay lah, dahlah main2. Memang sikap aku yang paling buruk ni kene buang. malas tu musuh utama manusia. Setiap kali rasa malas haruslah tukar mindset bahawasanya untuk future yang hebat wajiblah rajin. Dan aku tengah plan sesuatu untuk belajar aku tahun ni. Well , target nak jayyid jiddan kut. haruslah rajin. So ni plan aku,.

1. untuk notes lecture, aku akan tulis balik lepas habis kelas. notes tu penting kut untuk future. orang kata aku membazir ke apa ke, tak kisah. memang aku kena tulis balik so thats aku akan ingat.
2. lepas habis buat notes lecture ngn round aku akan hafal viva . buku kecil. itu untuk score exam end round nanti.
3. aku akan tengok kes2 yang berkaitan dan buat notes baru untuk special kes tersebut so thats aku akan ingat clinical picture dan sewaktu dengannya.
4. lepas tu baru aku buat kerja persatuan dan habiskan nota CHEST.

Target minggu ni:

1. nota CHEST beserta mneumonics.
2. hafal ayat quran juzuk 30 semua.
3. viva untuk haematology dah ingat plus normal value tampal kat dinding.

target minggu depan:

1. Kes2 haematology habis hafal
2. hafal doa penting dan masuk al baqarah
3. viva untuk cardiology.

Moga Allah permudahkan.!.aMEn!

Midnight.

Bismillahirahmanirrahim

I do nothing and i was wondering why i was like this.

Medical is exhausting but exciting .
I hope i finish this sooner.

spirit

“The will to win, the desire to succeed, the urge to reach your full potential… these are the keys that will unlock the door to personal excellence.”
—      Confucius

ive changed

“People say to you, ‘you’ve changed’, or something like that, well, I hope, for the sake of God, that you have changed, because I don’t want to be the same person all my life. I want to be growing, I want to be expanding. I want to be changing. Because animate things change, inanimate things don’t change. Dead things don’t change. And the heart should be alive, it should be changing, it should be moving, it should be growing, its knowledge should be expanding.” 

hamza yusof

15 february 2015, a knock.

“

If there is ever a time you can’t find me, don’t worry.


I’m doing alright.
I’m probably hiding out somewhere counting my blessings.


Mumbling something about sunshine.
Wondering how much love I could live in a lifetime.” 

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